Do you ever get weighed down by your works in progress? Sometimes I feel like I'm trying so hard to get further along on all the various projects that I'm working on, that I get nowhere on any of them. I know that it's totally my fault that I've started so many projects, and I really don't feel bad for starting them, but all of a sudden I'm feeling weighed down. Then, there is the fact that I feel like I'm always trying to come up with stuff to talk about and show here on my blog. Now don't get me wrong, I love writing my blog. I love all the people that I've met, both online and in real life. But there are days when I have nothing to say. Or at least nothing to say that is at all interesting.
I'm not really sure what is going on in my head, or my heart. My Dad has a bone scan tomorrow morning. (you can read all about it on his blog) That is weighing heavily on me. I would really appreciate it if you could pray for the doctors that are doing the scan and the coming results. That the doctors would finally figure out what is going on.
I don't have an update for the bloggers afghan again this week. It's one of those things that I work on...but the big corner square just isn't getting any bigger. So frustrating. I've been going home most nights, knitting a few rows and then just crashing...I hate that feeling. Just so that I don't end on a bad note, through all of this though, I continue to knit...and it does bring me comfort. Even if it's just one row a day. Just keep knitting. I met up yesterday over my lunch hour to knit with my mom, sister, and a few of my mom's friends. It was such an encouraging time of fellowship with other knitters that when I left, my heart felt full. I know that I'm going to be okay. My family is going to be okay. My knitting works-in-progress will continue to pile up...and that will have to be okay too.
Thanks for listening.
Posted by Stacey at November 9, 2006 08:26 AMStacey,
I'll be praying for all of you tomorrow and in the time to come.
*hugs*
Brianne
Posted by: Brianne at November 9, 2006 11:02 AMIsn't it such a privilege to be able to ask for prayer and to pray, even for those one does not know, may never meet until that glorious day in heaven? This is to say that I do pray for your father on a continuing basis. And today I pray for you, Stacey, that you will be strengthened by your faith and by the love that surrounds you. Julie
Posted by: Julie at November 9, 2006 11:57 AMI wrote today that knitting doesn't have any feelings. When you leave a project, it doesn't feel neglected. Take care of yourself, and your family, and the knitting will come whenever.
I'll think good thoughts for your father.
Posted by: Cara at November 9, 2006 12:10 PMSending good thoughts for your dad and your family.
Posted by: Kaitie Tee at November 9, 2006 12:18 PMAhh, sweetie! You've got so many things to worry about. Your dad is definitely in my prayers, no worries there. Just hang in there. Don't let the WiPS get you down. Plus, as you work on them, you make progress on them. Some of them, like an afghan is a long-term project, sometimes it get more play than others, but it will be done when it's done.
Posted by: Wanda at November 9, 2006 12:24 PMThe projects will always be there. Just give yourself a break and work on whatever feels right for the time. I am holding good thoughts for your family.
Posted by: Judy at November 9, 2006 12:29 PMYou and your dad are in my thoughts.
Posted by: Kat with a K at November 9, 2006 12:30 PMYou, your Dad, and your family will be in my thoughts. Hang in there :) (((hugs)))
Posted by: Kim at November 9, 2006 01:00 PMI usually lurk here, Stacey, but I just wanted to send you my best wishes for your Dad.
Posted by: Liz K. at November 9, 2006 01:11 PMYou're going through a lot Stacey and I am glad to hear that you're reaching out to a support network. We can do nothing but love one another and hold on!
Posted by: Bookish Wendy at November 9, 2006 01:36 PMKeep your chin up and keep breathing. Chocolate in large amounts is totally acceptable too. Warm thoughts and wishes for your family.
Posted by: Karen at November 9, 2006 02:22 PMYour family is SO amazing. I know God is with all of you during this time, and I'll be praying for you to feel that, along with praying for your dad, etc. Hope that things look up!!!
Posted by: sarah b. at November 9, 2006 02:33 PMReading your blog is a treat and I live vicariously through your many wips.....but the blog and the wips are not nearly as important as your family. Take a break and concentrate on the really important things. Just knit to be soothed...progress is not nearly as important as the healing nature of knitting. Your father and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Allyson at November 9, 2006 03:05 PMI know how confusing it can be when your hobbies start to get out of control. But more, I understand what you're going through with your dad, and you can know that I'll be thinking of your family and sending a prayer up for you. My mum isn't well at all, losing weight and completely without energy and she's had just about every test there is with no solution to the mystery. Hang in there.
Posted by: Kirstie at November 9, 2006 03:54 PMAs always if you need anything let me know, even a distracation from it all. I will be thinking you all of you tomorrow!! See you tomorrow night!
Posted by: Jeni at November 9, 2006 04:00 PMDe-lurking, too. This knitting stuff is great and all, but it's just not that serious (although I can totally relate to the drag of multiple WIPs)--it's supposed to be fun and relaxing, not stress inducing.
You're always so upbeat and cheerful, which is the peeps love you, but you don't always have to be cheerful and interesting. It's OK to let all that go sometimes. My best wishes to your dad and family.
Posted by: Stephy at November 9, 2006 04:03 PMi'm sending you BIG hugs from san francisco. and my fingers are crossed for the bone scan. and trust me, if i lived closer, i would bring over some chicken soup & just sit & knit with you.
Posted by: KnottieKnitter at November 9, 2006 04:15 PMWe can go through them and have a RIP party... it'll be therapeutic. Thinking of your family, esp your dad!!
I'll keep your whole family in my thoughts. I know how rough these medical things can be. Just try to find the comfort where you can :)
Posted by: Vicki at November 9, 2006 04:31 PMKnit for yourself. Blog for yourself. You don't have an obligation to anyone else for either one of them. We are just here for the ride. I will think happy thoughts your way, and pray for you.
Posted by: Teresa at November 9, 2006 04:42 PMI love you and your family Stace. Your dad will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow.
Posted by: Genia at November 9, 2006 04:46 PMLoads of people I ahve talked to are feeling very down and tired. I bet its the season change!!! I have been hadnly knitting--I've been sick! But I hope to feel the nighttime knitting fire SOON!
It will come back to us all.
Posted by: suzanne at November 9, 2006 05:17 PMYou, your dad and family are in my prayers. :)
Posted by: Stacie at November 9, 2006 05:41 PMhang in there, stacey. life happens so we can become stronger and grow from each and every thing we have go deal with. we are here for you.
Posted by: shannon in oregon at November 9, 2006 05:47 PMStacey,
You and your family are awesome. You have a rare thing being so close to your parents. Remember to take care of yourself and don't worry about how many WIP's you have cause they will always be there when you are up to it. You and your family are in my prayers.
Posted by: Stacey at November 9, 2006 07:33 PMOhhhhhhhhhhhhh, Stacy, I wish I could give you a hug. I know how much your Dad means to you and this has to be breaking your heart. God will hold your hand and walk through this with you. I will pray and pray for your Dad tonight and in the morning. I will also pray for strength for you and the rest of your family. It is ok to be sad, we will all be there for you through the ups and downs. That is what friendship is all about and we are lucky to have you as a friend.
YSIC,
Nachaele
Stacey,
I am praying for your father. I hope all goes well.
Posted by: Monica at November 9, 2006 08:14 PMBest wishes to your dad and family, and good for him to have an outlet to write it all out! I also get a little bogged down by my knitting, but mostly it's my stash. I don't have random balls of yarn, everything is a project bagged up with the pattern. Sometimes I just don't even want to look at them. That's when I knit a sock.
Posted by: Krista M at November 9, 2006 08:14 PMYour Dad just seems like the sweetest man alive. He seems dedicated to The Lord. He reminds me of my Dad. My Dad is still here, but we aren't close. I may not have the same emotions you have (you seem closer to your Dad) but as I was reading your feelings about the situation... and reading his blog... grief swept over me. I will be emailing my Dad after this, to let him know how much I love him.
Hon, God is in control. Put your trust and faith in him... Let go and Let God. Now, go knit or take a bath... but dont worry. Worry gets you nowhere.
I just lost my BFF/SIL May 31st of this year to Breast Cancer. My worry has developed into an anxiety disorder. No that Deb is with The Lord... my anxiety has consumed me in many aspects of my life. My knitting and faith ground me. I become centered and relaxed and see that God really is in control. He really does take care of everything.
I am so praying my heart out for you, your Dad, your family and for those Doctors.
Posted by: Christine at November 9, 2006 09:39 PMStacie,
Much love and prayers for your dad, mine was sick a few months ago so I know what you are going through. Faith and love gets us through. You have some karmic paychecks to cash because your blog brightens our days.
Stacey, you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, and your family also.
Whatever you have to say, whenever you have time to say it, we'll all be here for you. =)
Posted by: Faith at November 10, 2006 02:00 AMPrayer accomplishes MUCH! Don't forget that!
Posted by: Dana at November 10, 2006 05:25 AMI think of your dad all the time, and am so sorry you and I didn't have more of a chance to connect at Rhinebeck.
This is a time for the equivalent of mashed potatoes ... garter or stockinette stitch with no deadlines.
(((HUGS))), hon. I wish there were more I could do.
Posted by: Ruth at November 10, 2006 06:11 AMYou dad is in my prayers! You are, too.
Posted by: Brynne at November 10, 2006 06:33 AMSending positive thoughts and best wishes to you, your dad and your family.
Posted by: vknits at November 10, 2006 08:23 AMI'm praying for divine inspiration for the doctors, healing mercies for your dad, and peace for your spirit.
It's ok if you don't have anything to blog about. No one has something to say every day.
I am going through the "overwhelmed by WIPs" thing, too. It happens regularly. Today is being spent re-prioritizing, mentally, as well as praying for you and yours.
Love to you, Stacey.
Posted by: Sheila at November 10, 2006 10:27 AMStrangely enough, my husband is having the same kind of bone scan as your father, and I can't believe I was led by the Lord to read your blog today! My DH's scan is Tuesday, Nov. 14th, and he gets an injection and has to wait 3 hours for the scan also.
He's been having real soreness on his right side on what appears to be his ribs....so they want to check and see what's happening. Please pray that all is well for him and I will pray for your Dad and you also. Thank you!
Posted by: Laura at November 10, 2006 10:34 AMI hope your dad's scan goes well. I always feel more rushed near Christmas time, and feel as though I dont acheive much. Maybe finish off a smaller project so you feel as though the WIP's are getting smaller.
Posted by: Sue at November 10, 2006 02:20 PMStacey, I only know you through your blog, but I wanted to tell you that your Dad, your Mom, you and your Family are in my thoughts and prayers. I know your mind is going a mile a minute thinking what could be, but put your trust in God's hands. He is there for you.
Love to you.
I usually just lurk and read your blog. I enjoy it a lot. I've been through what you are going through and it is not easy. I pray God will comfort you and give you and your family the strength it needs. Knitting I think is a blessing from God, and the click click of the needles is very soothing. It is also a good time to commune with God and feel his peace come upon you. Take care and God bless.
Posted by: Terry at November 11, 2006 08:43 AMIt is such a joy to read your blog and the awesome people who support you! I am really glad that you have this outlet for your thoughts and feelings and such overwhelming support. You are an inspiration to me in the knitting department and also in your love and faith. I love you sis! I'm looking forward to some sister time this afternoon.
Posted by: Whit at November 11, 2006 09:19 AMMy wishes for good health and good news are being sent to you and your family. Keep knitting and know that this knitter is thinking of you and yours while she knits.
Posted by: Steph B. at November 11, 2006 11:32 AMI amsendng healing thougths you way for you and your father.
Knit if you feel like it on what you feel like. IF you are feeling overwhelmed by too many projects, put some asside and focus on one for a while. The feeling of completing something, anything will bouy you up.
Hi Stacey,
I just stumbled upon your blog for the first time, and have read through many of your old posts because I found it so entertaining to read. Even though you don't know me, I wanted to leave you and comment and tell you that I hope that all turns out well for your family. I can relate a bit to what you described that you're feeling, and I just wanted to lend some support. I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts. I hope all is better soon.
Posted by: Jennifer at November 12, 2006 08:47 AMBlessings... I will hold you and your family in my thoughts.
d.
Posted by: d. at November 12, 2006 10:29 AMSending positive vibes your way! I love reading about your family, you all seem so close, it makes me a little envious. Don't worry about boring your readers... I think most of us are at a point where you could write entire posts having nothing to do with knitting at all, and we'd still read. I hope with all my heart that they find out what's wrong with your Dad, and it's nothing big.
Posted by: Marlena at November 12, 2006 05:22 PMI'm going to say a prayer for your dad that everything goes well.
I get like that with posts sometimes. I swear that today's post is the first one in a while with actual knitting content. I've mostly blogged about other stuff that was taking the top spot in my life at the time. We aren't going anywhere
Dear Stacey,
Thinking of you and hoping everything went well with the bone scan. Don't feel pressure about coming up with stuff to write about. I -and I am sure many others- will come to visit you and read whatever you decide to write; whenever you decide to do so.
I come here very often and I am delighted to share a little piece of your life. I don't care if you post pictures, or write new interesting stuff about knitting. I come here because you are a fellow knitter and I appreciate being able to "share" with you.
I work full time, have a 3 year old daughter, a puppy and a husband that keep me very busy. I can only knit a few rows every day, but my knitting is always there for me. Whenever I feel like knitting, I know it is there for me. I wish I had more time to knit, but for the moment my life is very busy. Managing to keep at least some project going is a huge effort, but I feel comfort knowing it is there. I hope you can get some sort of similar peace about your busy life soon.
Best regards,
Ana
Posted by: Ana at November 13, 2006 06:52 PMDad is bigger than knitting, Stacey. I will continue to pray for your family, and will share with our pastors tomorrow. God is over it all.
Posted by: Lynne at November 13, 2006 07:23 PMAm crossing my fingers and praying for your dad, Stacey! Your family, based on what I've seen in your blog, seems really amazing and connected. I know you guys are going to be strong together.
Posted by: mia at November 13, 2006 07:29 PM